my day today was not even going that well to begin with. My math teacher pissed me tf off today OH MY GOD... he literally jsut asked me if i was having trouble woth math like ofc im having trouble u suck ass at teaching and then my english teacher moved me away from my friend for talking WHICH IS UNDERSTANABLE... but right after i was moved she started talking about how we could only talk if we talked about school//// me n my friend were talking about school very quietly. gulp THENNN history teacher starting bitching about my family history project... tecaher u dont need to know everything about my family i do not feel comfortable telling u most of my siblings were born from midwives. i will tell the internet about it tho,, but i just dont rlly like her TBH...
But after school i talked with my friends eggz!!! fuckig love him hes da goat,, and he tells me everything AND APPARENTLY my old best friend has been talking shit on me.. like wtf shes saying that i am juist annoying and that i am "blowing up" her phone,,, no tf i am NOT. like after the whole felicity thing i didd pull away since all of it was embarassing to admit to but yk especially to her cuz even whenn we were super close she was my biggest critic. AND I WAS GRATEFUL for that until now.. shes just saying im annoying now when i have not spoken to her in literal months i understand if she doesn't wanna be my friend anymore ik im not the most likable nor unabrasive personality but yk just talking about me in public is absurd... i know i can be a sort of obsessive friend and im very very social person... but thats literrally just how i am as a person. if she doesnt like that then thats not on her to talk about. idk,,, my friend told me that th eperson she was talking to was probably a new friend and she is just immediately talking about me ???? idk i have never hated someone so much as i have hated her,,, except felicity but thats just cuz felicity is a literal pedophile.... but yk what this EX friend and felcity have in commone theyre both fat fucking white women. what used to be my exact type/// my type is now my gf (hi nick ik ur reading ts luv ya) BUT OMG IM SPO FUCKING FILLED WITH HATE ALL THI GIRL WOULD REPOST ABOUT IS HOW LONELY SHE WAS AND SHES JUST GENERALLY VERY VEYR RUDW????? LIKE I WAS THE OINLY ONE TO DEAL WITH HER PERSONALITY ANF HOW SHE WAS AND I EXPECTEED HER TO DO THE SAME AND ACCEPT MY ENERGY AND THE EAY I SHOW AFFECTION AND HOW I SHOW THAT I LOVE MY FRIWENDS!!!! BUT SHE LITERALLY DOPESNT SHE IS JSUT AN UNGRATEFUL BASTARD WHO CANNOT KNOW WJHAT IS GOOD FOR HER I HOPE SHE DIES I GENUINLEY THOUGHT SHE WAS MY FRIEND AND THAT HER CRITICISM WAS FROM THE HEART AND FROM A PLACE OF LOVE FOR ME... NO TF IT IS NOT SHE JUST HATED ME???? I SPENT ALL THIS TIME DEFENDING HER CRUELITY TO MY FRIWNDS FOR NOTHING ALL I WPULD TELL THEM "omg she just cares" "she just means well" "shes just being honest" "i rlly can be stupid sometimes" I DID ALL OF THIS FOR NOTHING JUST VFFOR HER TO GENUINELY HATE ME... FUCK MY LIFE I THOUGHT WE WERTE FRIENDS FOR YEARS??? YK WHAT FUVK HWR SHE COULDVE TOLD ME THIS WHOLE TIME SHE DID NOT LIKE ME ORN THTA SHE DIDNT WANNA BE MY FRIEND BUT SHE LET ME DELUDE MYSELDF INTO THINKING WE HAD A GENUINE FRIENDSHIP AND ENJOYMENT OF EACH OTEHR
at the end of the day i fucking hate everybody and everything in my life i do not have a mother to love so now i will spread hate amongst everybody i meet efrhivdfhiudif
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