FAUCK am I supposed to do

 Hdhgdhhdhehd I’m so stressed rn I’ve literally never been so conflicted,,, ☹️

I wouldn’t like to go too in depth on here but it’s like… mentally ill people do mentally ill things yk? I understand why she did the things she did but it doesn’t make it right.. she rlly shouldn’t be putting herself in bad situations with older people but it’s the adults responsibility to stop those situations from happening at the end of the day so does it rlly matter? I feel sorta sick that she interacted with dark shippers while she knew me.. but I know that she’s struggling and i mean REALLY struggling..

I was talking to my closest friend about this and she said “yk the saying through thick and thin? This is the thick..” and that really stuck with me,, 

this person has shown me nothing but kindeness and I know she isn’t like that anymore and she’s showm me she’s against things like dark shipping,,, 

the question I’m stuck with like whether her actions are forgivable considering her struggle and how much kindness she’s treated me with. I believe she’s a good person but I also think every one deep deep down are all good people. It’s a struggle,,,

 I’m friends with one of her closest friends so if that friend stays I’ll stay there’s only one exception. It’s whether I feel genuinely uncomfortable with being friends with her I mean,,, I’m uncomfortable right now, yes but yk what I mean… I’m uncomfortable now but I mean later once Ive calmed down if I feel uncomfortable with the concept of being friends with her I will not be. I probably shouldn’t be posting about this…

vent doodle 

Baka Baka updates

 Sorry for not blogging for a couple days i get back trying to blog daily,,, 😥

ALSO THE MALL TRIP I MENTIONED BEFORE IN MY OTHER POSTS… MY SISTER FUCKING CANCELLED IM SO ANGRY I WAIT ALL WEEK I FINISH THIS BIG PROJECT FORRR WHAT FOR NOTHING.. FOR MY SHIT TO GET CANCELLED AT THE LAST SECOND 😡

I remember i was planning on blogging about the things i found while cleaning my room but by the time i was done cleaning i was too exhausted to blog,,, then i just feel like i got busy. I do like having a clean room tho

My freaking dad has been angry with me recently tho,, IDK i get why tbh like i slept til 4pm the day before yesterday butttt I literally only did that to avoid him tbh. Idk i never eat and i just stay in my room all day it kinda sucks but going outside my room is worse my siblings dont even like me i have to present projects in front of them for college too and all they do is laugh and i HAVE to record it and I HATE it.. 

I’ve also been rly stressed lately likeeee why are my ex friends face doxxing my friends???? How much of a weirdo do you have to be to do that.. freaks me out. I was rlly panning on starting to post on TikTok again but i decided not to because i know these people have access to my face and if they posted my friend then im probably next.. idk it just feels like people are going too far with this typa stuff.. ive gotten threats and so much other shit and ive been straight up stalked by felicity frankly its sickening but at the end of the day i know the reason they’re doing this is that they have nothing better to do. I shouldn’t bother with it too much,, im going to college at 15 what have they accomplished??? Frankly people like that on the internet sicken me i dont think no matter what i have done like i dont deserve this… LIKE CMON WE DATED FOR 2 DAYS AND YOUVE BEEN ON ME AND MY FRIENDS ASSES FOR MONTHS u can only do so much felicity and you’ve already done the majority of it,, what else do you have in life be honest with me??? I think the best course of action for you would be to drop out and get a GED (general education development) becuase from what you’ve told me you can fucking do school and thats fine but the issue i have with you is that you dont rly try??? How r u supposed to get good grades and succeed when you dont do shit? I did shit,, even if I didn’t have the best grades i got into. COLLEGE because i have a drive in my life. Maybe thats what you need a reason to try,, u rlly dont have anything in life and thats pathetic. My drive is my mothers death,, she wanted me to succeed so i do i got college credits in high school, hell even in middle school i was getting high school credits and now im in college all you need to do felicity is to apply yourself and i mean this sincerely,,, you probably wont read this tho tbh the link to this thing is on my tumblr and i have you blocked everywhere and you dont even use tumblr but at the end of the day i want you to get better and i think what you need to do that is to get the fuck off the internet,, for a really really long time. Get a hobby or some shit and stop harassing me and nick 😭 jeez all u do is jerk off to incest and say the n word 

I wish i could truly hate you and apart of me does but i know my mother would never want me to hate so lucky you stupid bastard

#wtv 

college sucks too man.. i have a speech due the 3rd which is in a couple days and I haven’t even started on it,,, crazy how its about to be July and its gonna be my first year of art fight.. im stressing to hell and back over other things tho… sadly.

#Decent Day #queer

 This is just gonna be a play by play of my day lol 

So i woke up around 8 because I was getting a hairrr cut… I shower at 9;30 ish and then I go to my sister’s boyfriend’s house to get the haircut. This is becuz like my sisters friend was gonna come over to his house to give me a haircut (her friend is a hairdresser ig) but i got my haircut and i think it was pretty cute. It was just a bit off the ends expect in the front its shorter to frame by face. I kept lowkey shifting in the chair tho so I got it kinda lopsided sadly… I dont think its that noticeable (at least i hope its not) I then got pizza with my family i then called my friend Nick for a little and then at 6:30 I presented my final through a video call,, it was rly embarrassing tbh i had to present in front of a bunch of adults but my teacher said I did rlly well especially since im just 15 yk. Also when i got home from the haircut my clothes from hyperbee’s came!!! It was very cute omg ILL OUT THE WEBSITES PHOTOS OF LIKE WHAT I GOT LOL 

It was a struggle to get those photos jeez 😕 nick you dawg

Ghcchhcchh so i finished my presentation and i got back on call with nick and stuff and like my dad calls me over and he’s just eating a whole LIKE FULL OCTOPUS.. he offered me the rest and i took it and i ate the whole octopus it was so good omg and then Ike me n nick r hanging out and im just grossing her out because she can hear me chewing,, the base of an octopus is rlly tough to chew through sorry… but yk i was eating she as drawing and she drew my Felix x Franz fankid 😗

Creds to nick ofc b t dubbs

BUT HSRGH i had sm more college work to do so i did that all with nick and now like im all caught up for this week in fact!!!! THIS WEEK IS WHEN MY EDU CLASS ENDS ON THE 28TH ILL B FREE!!! #free im very glad its over since that class was the harder set work wise tbh it was very confusing and i had to do so many slideshows and lesson plans in fact my final presentation was presenting a lesson plan to my class and teaching it to them.. but yk its over the last things I just did was my E-profolio and my reflections on every assignment,, i kinda fucked up on them and i had to change them last minute since apparently u had to make an activity for ur “class” based of each assignment SOWWY TEACH I DID NOT READ THAT SYLLABUS 😭😭😭 hjvfvb then fir my comm assignment i just had to prepare my topic for my persuasive speech,, i had 3 choices that i made myself and i ended up choosing something about sugar in drinks based off that crumbl cookie dirty soda bullshit.. i dont wanna remember rn.. but i turned that and im done for the week!!! Ike i said in my last post im going to the mall this Saturday so ts is gonna be a nice reward for all my hard work 😸

Edit: the last post that was mentioned at the end uh.. I deleted it was oversharing asf

Oihghghhfhfugdsvs my best friend

 .hgrigfdvgiufuigkujgdiuhjk OMH MY god,,, she’s th best person ive ever met aweeew. she’s so cute omg she’s so KIND and TALENTeED… literally what did i do to deserve someone so kind in my life she messages me and it just fillls me with nothing but joy and happiness’s,, She literally so sweet and i love the littlee things she does… like ShE NEVER SWEARS its so cute and it makes my heart warm up just the silly things she says to replace curse words like ahh and shiza SHES JUST THE CUTEST and she’s so nice and understanding to me she’s harsh sometimes but that only endears her to me more… she knows when she needs to be honest and tell me that im being dumb.. sometimes im scared of what shell think if i tell her something especially since recently i was hurt by someone online… like emotionally like i got pretty messed up by it too and i feel ashamed since i knew how much advise she gave me never to date online and to date someone with good grades and rlly have my standards set up high!!! And I didn’t listen to her at all and i got hurt!!1 :( so im scared to tell her stuff especially since the person who hurt me threatened to doxx me and thats why i left TikTok!! And she doesn’t know and im scared shell think im dumb.. ik she will think im dumb but i have faith that shell be sweet and still understand like she always has i feel rlly guilty for hiding it from her it makes me sad and im still not ready since i keep finding more and more disgusting things about my ex which makes me wonder why i loved her so much to begin with… but its wtv what matters is that at least most of my friends understand what i went through,, i just want my best friend to understand… 😞 wahhhhh ahhhh why is my best friend so sweet.  

I HATE COLLEGE

COLLEGE just sucks tbh,,, im taking 2 courses rn EDU 214 and COM 101 

Com means communications and all i do in that class is humiliate myself!!! I had to perform a speech in front of my family and like who wants to listen to someone talk about root beer fucking no one… so all my siblings laughed at me 😢  I HAD TO RECORD IT AND PUT IT ON YOUTUBE TOO its unlisted so you guys will hopefully never see it but I don’t really have good recording stuff so like it was at a weird angle and it make me look fat because I have no jawline i bet you everyone who had to critique my performance are just thinking about how fucking ugly i am!!!!! :(((((

Edu is for education since i stated in my last post that im working to become a teacher. Edu ALSO sucks… the instructions are never as clear as id like them to be but I make it work and the whole class is adults WHICH I SHOULD EXPECT ITS UH COLLEGE but my com class has kids in it!!!!!!!11!! 😞 i just dont rlly like working tbh… and i just got assigned my final project which is a lesson plan and its due the 25… ITS THE 22ND I ONLY HAVE LIKE 3 DAYS and LIKE I HAVE A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT TMR ugesfigfugiugiffh I hate everything…

Very first post!!!! Intro / about me

It’s late rn and i have impulsively started a blog!!! This is gonna be more of a personal journal than anything and just a place for me to be cringe on the internet 

Im 15 and preparing to college in fact im currently taking a couple courses,, im studying to become a teacher in the future and its generally my main passion

I do a lot of other things too!!! Like making art and edits and mood boards and now i do blogging! I may post things like art and edits on here… if you guys would like me to ofc

I hope everyone enjoys my blog and the things I say on here… im not the best at explaining myself so if i say anything stupid say something and comment!!!! 

Some more goofy things about me-

• Im a yume shipper (With Mario Hugo from 31 minutos and Franz from 13 cards: land of kings)
• Im currently watching Glee, Malcolm in the middle, and Abbot elementary 
• I love hollister and brandy melville along with general twee or downtown girl fashion 
• I have a big family and ill probably mention them from time to time because they bother me way too much 😤
• I like 31 minutos, dragon striker, insectarium alternative march and 13 cards!!!
• I dont care about grammar or spelling on this blog but I actually excel in English and im preparing to go into a college course for it